* The Light @ The End of the Tunnel of the Dark Night of the Soul *

I’ve learned many things in my experiences of DNOS - and feel that they are a gift - a blessing if you will …. While many may feel / or at first hearing the term may something ‘dark’, troubling, threatening or what not - I appreciate the opportunity to expand in supersition various views of why these experiences, while a challenge, are intense, can be ‘painful’ et al - when feeling outside the box I have come to be grateful for these experiences - especially when I reflect upon them beyond duality / 3rd dimensional views of what is ‘Dark’ and what is light. Here’s a few core examples:

These experiences have led me down a path of greater awareness, higher consciousness and a in depth glimpse of the profound joy of our true nature. I encourage it now as I have learned to accept, move forward, grow, and embrace both chaos and order, or various states of creation / destruction in forms and formlessness of manifestation ….. ebbs/flows - ahhhhhhhhhhhh cyclical nature of the omniverse..

While one may definitely feel that suffering during this process is un-ending - there is definitely light at the end of most tunnels. (I’ll get into black hole discussions later … jk)

These experiences are doorways of growth — akin to an initiation of sorts in terms of soul evolution. In the empathic realm it can be felt as a profound absence of light and hope… among many a definition. For some it can even birth the illusion of separation, the feeling of being alone - even though in our hearts / soul we are all one and all connected

The awareness of this gift, and it takes a leap of faith to know and love this special teacher. In respects to the doorway, I choose to walk on through and am more aware of the realization that it is also an opportunity to transmute my old tendencies, ways of being, thinking / feeling and enter into a new realm of being … full heart, soul, mind (yes it tis all one) - to know pain, misery, profound suffering is to open the path of joy, gratitude and love…a transorbital adventure.

It helps me to realize with real eyes, heart, psyche presence where the impossible spells IM POSSIBLE - anything really is possible in a free-will omniverse.

The feelings of emptiness, devastation, anger, fear, something not working, something awry, hanging on, the heart numbing, attachment towards, agony, fleeting depression, turbulence, illusion of seperation, ideas, thoughtforms, belief systems of ego give birth — if the heart is pierced and opened further, open to change - from what ‘appeared’ as statis to a rebirth sense of awareness of what the light dance of life is… opening gateways to the potential / kinetic energies joy, abundance, prosperity, profound peace of the spirit. In a sense there is a potential energy that exists during a Dark Night of the Soul which can in the light at the end of the tunnel uplift you in new awareness and feelings of love, peace, intuitive knowing, feeling and being - a profound awareness. Each of us as souls has an infinite inner potential that has great stature, within what Einstein referred to as ‘the optical delusion of self consciousness’ is our lovely Ego…bearing a question of our soul’s experience to be transformed.

While the Dark Night is a difficult time for many who experience it - it yields the potential to experience a magnitude of growth in a intense period - piercing the heart in love and compassion to increase your empathy for all souls. The process allows one to experience the ‘Alien’ation of being caught between an old way of life / being and new possibilities. Attempts to move through the state have a profound effect of the ego participating in it. In the fullness of the night, one may even be feeling stranded as if on a desert island or unknown world. One may feel as though they do not where to turn, or what to do next. The ability to know (all as) one’s suffering, the collective pain and feel hollow, empty, as well as be profoundly aware of the suffering and cruelty of humanity uncovers and releases one to feel love / compassion in a novel way. In the perception and feeling of sovereign solitude - an awakening is possible.

In this precious time, one may experience a wise vessel of truth, going deeper inside of oneself than one may ever explore outside oneself. This may give one a new understanding that perhaps there is more to this …. in reaching within, not one thought or feeling may at first appear on the surface to reach the inner storm and bring the light in. At first it may even appear no thought, no action, no direction will bring one peace, that possibly, one may even feel that they have tried every option that they know of — one may even question if it is possible to continue to persist or struggle - a feeling of helplessness may even ensue… or perhaps …. just maybe even after abiding and feeling of acceptance of this state - that perhaps the rainclouds, wind, and storm will part ways one day and illuminate your heart / soul with soft, sweet, radiant presence of peace….

Like a butterfly flapping its wings - a new experience - world - a new dawn is born…. You may feel as though in this moment of rapture you are as a phoenix, who has died, been reborn again from its own ashes, permeating your heart with peace, - you have grown wings - wings of a new being born from your own, shedding / molting away the down of the ego to give awareness and fulfillment to a luminous plumage, uplifting you in flight of light a new being, being free - transformed.

This transformation and the process / path / journey one gives to experience it - is that gift. Transmuting - one’s ego, a limited sense of self, an inadequate complex of ideas about who one is was dissolved and eclipsed in the experience of the night to shed light to our true nature.

The many Dark Nights I have experienced in life not only have opened my heart chakra - infinity fold - they have also give me an opportunity to become more aware through one’s journey through life, we gather information, responses from the world as an extension of the ego consciousness in the world we live in, and possibly - that at one point I may have been THINKING / FEELING that these forms of identity, thought forms, belief systems indicated what kind of person you were and are. These units of related inputs became integrated by the ego in its own attachment of identity. We all have egos … how aware one may be of that is what this gift entails. It is a blessing led when we can see our mirror reflections and realize with real eyes and hearts that these are merely (mirrorly) projections of our sense of self, our perceptions of who we are . It is but a limited / partial sese of who we are - truly …. in our limitless true nature.

The blessing for me in this lesson, is the opportunity to live fully open in the heart, soul, with compassion, to know truly who we are, and allow our pure essence to emerge and be. To transform, to transmute, to alchemize and abide in true nature, to nuture this possibility. In this enlightenment, I open one heart and soul to the light of fulfillment of something greater than I know it to be. In this auspicious moment, I open myself to the world of infinite possibilities of carrying more light, vibrating at higher frequencies, grounding, sharing and healing energies - of my heart / soul’s birth of wholeness, opening to the limitless attributes of true nature and the cycles it presents. Newness, alive and fresh … I hope this may serve as an inspiration in love for all is one.

Think of what it takes for a caterpillar to become a butterfly.

Emerging frem a chrysalis state, this cocoon of the webs we weave in our collective experiences, I metamorphesize and shift, growing wings. I am born of the void between states of being, the Phoenix who died, reborn from its ashes, as a child of the universe. In the dying moments of the previous universe, the Force of this energy - saved all my soul’s existence, giving me Eternity to preserve yet at the same time transform selves and be reborn from the cosmic fires of our soul’s evolution. From the butterfly effect to the phoenix, we can change, or variate in levity a kaleidoscope of metastatis - a opportunity for us to grow. Awakening to this reality - and the infinite potentials of the heart seat of compassion and unconditional love, the dream of this fiery bird opens gateways to revelations — to travel new paths as true masters and experience a broad spectrum of new sensations. This experience feels like an empathic alignment of multidimensional interfaces, a form of grids of omniversal energy/lifeforce/CHI/QA/MER/KA/BA/The force joined with the unity consciousness of the fiery phoenix, the indigo butterfly, flapping its wings in freedom, to project the essence of its holographic nature of light through many verses, or multi verses - existing in every plane of reality simultaneously as an energy matrix.

The phoenix, coupled with the Butterfly effect, are eternal, indestructible, and mutable manifestations of the prime universal force of life, derived from the psyches of all living beings. In its natural state, this life-cycle is enough to sustain the Force.

In order to manifest itself on the physical plane, the Force must tap into the near limitless source of energy provided by life-force reserved for future generations. The Force can wield this energy to project beams of immense concussive force, as well as transmigrate throughout time and space by folding its energy back into itself, causing it to collapse akin to a black hole, then it reforms itself upon reaching its destination, like the Phoenix of Earth legend.

In communion of the force (of what we call Darkness and Light), the butterfly and phoenix, I flap my wings Flutterby, fly high, by day and nigh - My lovely dearest ones, . By and by I Love thee always in all ways.

In love and light,

Karina